It’s been a while since I last posted a blog. I could give you a mountain of excuses but bluntly; I didn’t feel like it. Plain and simple. Much has happened in my fitness, family, business life; too much to blog. Sometimes keeping it personal (meaning to yourself and your close friends/family) is best rather than blurt out your guts for everyone else to read.
Competition training took it’s toll psychologically. (Lots of spinning emotions there)What some people don’t grasp and you really won’t unless you have competed and are a parent at the same time; the difficulty of balance. Bodybuilding is a selfish sport. Something I am not. It’s more than taking that much needed hour for yourself.
Along with the chaos of training, mix in two kids in baseball; games,practices, tournaments. Keeping their focus, lifting their heads up when they were down.
Add to that a very hard working husband who is working so hard to finish his degree with academic honors all while working a full time job, part time life/securities insurance job, father, husband, coach, and all around hero to his boys.
Sometimes something has to give and that something was balance in my life.
Since finishing my competition, even though it wasn’t what I hoped for; it was a mountain of stress relief lifted as soon as I walked off stage. I knew at that moment I was done, retired from bodybuilding competition.
Post bodybuilding competition there is a negative effect of mental status; what do I do now, what do I eat, how do I train. It’s very surreal, very confusing, almost too much slack in the line after being pulled tight for so long.
I took my first non stressed run a few days after and cried at the freedom to be doing what I liked and what made me feel like me. On my terms not a mandated, very strict schedule. Balance was starting to come back.
It’s been almost a month and I am finally feeling “ok” with myself, with my daily routine, my nutrition. Balance.
Today is Friday. I take Friday’s off to have fun with my boys, to relax, do whatever. I still feel a ping of guilt for being so lax, but I’ll get over it.
Today, I slept in, woke up, enjoyed my coffee on my front porch and decided that today I would blog because I didn’t feel pressured to do so.
Today will be a great day!
Find your balance, find your happiness, find YOU within it!
DO THE WORK!
MABFIT!